My mind's racing through the events of my life My ups, my downs, my joys and my strife Looking at the people who love me, and the ones that don't Seeing my goals in life, the things I need and want My passions, my desires, my feelings deep within My loves, my heats, my blessings and my sins I can feel the strength that I've acquired, and my moments of purity I see it all through my third eye, the one that looks inside of me Winding through my life story, the journey to get me here Exploring my successes and failures, trusts and fears My insecurities I mask and the flaws in my reflection My constant need for acceptance, my desire for perfection I've given too much of myself to try to appease others Whether it's parents, relationships, sisters or brothers So life has brought me to this point, a moment of clarity Straight faced, deep in thought, no time for hilarity Staring blankly into space, can't even see what's ahead Totally incoherent to what's around me in this bed My eyes are wide open, searching left to right But I can't see where I'm at, there's no reality in sight I'm here but I'm not, in the physical sense It's clear but it's not, looking through my third lens So my mind has traveled the journey, its given me relief To the pains of my life, the losses and the grief To the triumphs of my life, my perfect imperfections The convergence of me living in self-satisfaction I've had to make the vow to be who I desire to be Because no-one can live my life for me but me So as I sit back and think of the joy and pain life wrought I just let my mind wonder through my "Idle Thoughts"